I started this site one night when I couldn’t sleep, needed to vent and didn’t know what else to do. I have tried many times to to write my story in the hope that maybe I could help someone but every time I start writing it down, I get flashbacks and anxiety so bad I have to stop. I feel compelled to help children and I believe that until the school system starts talking to children starting in kindergarten about what (sexual, physical, emotional etc.) abuse is; the rise in youth violence will continue to get worse. If you look at the statistics, most children are abused before school age so waiting until they are in middle school or high school to talk to kids, we are wasting our time. By then they are already wielding guns and exploding with rage. We must let them know they are not alone and they do not have to keep secrets. They do not have to grow up without their basic needs being met. By the time I was 8 years old I was already damaged goods which is why I believe the younger we start talking to children, the better. Unfortunately, as much as we spend on helping the victims of abuse:: the addicts, domestic abuse shelters, rape counselors, victims of youth violence and school shooters etc.; we are emptying the ocean with a teaspoon. Every day more and more abusers are being groomed as they live through their own abuse.
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Haven’t been on here in a while. Started having seizures which, after two weeks with electrodes glued to my head, turned out to be from complex PTSD. I never knew PTSD could cause seizures but apparently it can so now my shrink is trying to get me into a 30 day PTSD unit for treatment. I was a victim of both torture, including having to play Russian roulette with a loaded 38 revolver at the age of nine as well as every kind of abuse imaginable. I am not sure if I will ever be normal. I have struggled my whole life with flashbacks, nightmares and panic attacks. God help any children in abusive and neglectful homes.